Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Why sould I write here...

...and only tell you I feel fat and ugly? No point. I'm joining this gym soon, so now I see hope in the dark tunnel! I'm so exited! It says "free training in june and july!" I'm so going there!:) I have to plan out my meals and food intake - no carbs and more protein AND start counting all the calories. For me - there's no other f*cking way... or else I'll just eat too much.
Maybe I sould start with protein shakes..? :P  This feels good.. to talk about my plans and how I have this hope... A hope to get happy with my body. 

"Take a walk at the beach in my pink bikini looking perfect and skinny! My long dark brown hair will look so good to my tanned skin and white teeth.. I will feel this warm hand touching my tiny waist, and feel the love of my dear. He'll tell me I look stunning and that he has to go into the water to cool down;) ..."
*dreaming*
And the thing is, I KNOW it's not so far away.. I'm not like, obese or anything, so it won't take years to get skinny.. with little food and much training.. maybe 1-2 months!! :D ..but I do have 18 pounds/8 kg left to lose..! And it feels like it's getting more every day:(

I work at this cafè, as I might told you.. and I all of a sudden find it so hard to stop puting all the carbs in my month! Why:(:(:(??? It's like I can't stop. I don't have the power. I'm killing myself.. kind of. No I weigh 123,5 lbs... And I was like 117 lbs some weeks ago!:O  I could cry for less:( I look pregnant for gods sake - goddamn it, I hate myself now!!!:(


How're you doing with your weight loss!:-)

 
Ana's love.. <3



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5 comments:

  1. kesJune 7, 2011 at 12:23 PM

    You'll lose the weigh. Just don't give up. That's the most important thing. If you give up you'll never reach your goal. Just make a plan that you can follow. Or just do a bunch of little changes but do them slowly until you get used to it. Stay strong. You can do it!

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  2. Just MeJune 7, 2011 at 12:47 PM

    Don't worry, you'll lose the weight. Don't be so hard on yourself. Just keep trying, you'll get there!

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  3. AnonymousJune 8, 2011 at 11:52 AM

    Love your blog. Pics are so inspirational. You're doin' great -- Your CW is more like my GW! But just like you, I'm going to DO this!

    Will check back again.

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  4. PrettyThin2beJune 8, 2011 at 3:08 PM

    Tnx for the comments guys - means the world 2 me<3

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  5. FYIMarch 29, 2013 at 11:09 AM

    awesome . Some things are so beautiful they absolutely prove a loving creator . Being beautiful is inspirational , you qualify. I hope u are hip to the benifits of coconut oil iside and out , primrose oil ,,, Vitamin U ,,, your blood pH factor I am starting a blog with info like that so we are practically neighbors . Come and visit anytime ~ http://www.obsoletewarfare.blogspot.com/

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